Crab & Nemo

I want crab and nemo... with cucumber. i.e. Kani Salad. hehe.

Yum.

AIMs

KLW (12:42:55 PM): well, he will always break my heart.
K e Y S i K i P (12:43:08 PM): and you will still love him despite and because of that.
K e Y S i K i P (12:43:13 PM): what a lucky, lucky boy.
KLW(12:43:43 PM): :-(
KLW(12:43:45 PM): horrible

What you cannot lose

When there are risks and challenges in every direction, where do you get the courage to move forward? That courage depends largely on the things you value most in your life.

When you place the most value on fleeting, shallow superficial things, you're constantly at risk of losing it all. Those things can quickly disappear. Money and material possessions are indeed very useful, and can bring a certain richness to life. Yet if you allow the value of your life to be defined by them, you're building on shaky ground.

On the other hand, if you value most those things you cannot lose, you'll have the courage necessary to assume the risks and to take on the difficult challenges. Your faith, your sincere love for others, your integrity, your purpose, your desire to make a difference, all have the power to survive whatever difficulties you may face.

Whatever happens, there are some things that can never be taken from you, some things you cannot lose. When those things matter most to you, it can give you the confidence to attempt just about anything.

HA!

It's true what they say - when it rains, it pours.

And I blame myself for asking for it - "Let the rain fall, I don't care!"

Raining issues here, man! But hell, I don't care still. Bring.it.on. : )

Pack up time soon!

Let the rain fall, I don't care

I arrived at my apartment at 8AM Monday – a record because I usually arrive from night shift in the noon. My roommates were all asleep and obviously had inuman sessions the night before because I saw cake, wine, jenga, scattergories on our table and more of those on the floor. Nice way to start the week! I miss them! Anyhoo, I changed and lied down and for a while feared for my life because my thumb was twitching – I need to give my body a break. It doesn’t follow a clock anymore and has not been receiving rest for months now. Tsk.

10 hours later (with several phone calls in the middle), I woke up to the sound of my alarm. I sat down, grabbed a magazine and connected the iPod to some speakers lying around. I must have been gone in the apartment for a long time coz I do not recognize those speakers. Later on I found out they are Mykie’s (Tippi’s friend). She had a party last Friday which I missed – not entirely because she asked me to drink one glass of Mai Tai before leaving for work. She asked me to skip work and just drink and entertain her friends which included 7 Spaniards who are vacationing in Manila. I turned it down because I am a loser. Poo hoo! According to her, the party went well – that is, everyone was dead drunk. There were a lot of guys and just 5 girls. A real sausage fest!

Anyhoo – zoom back to today. I left the apartment at 8PM after having a quick chat with Nams and Dan. Nams is leaving the company after 5 years to study. I left before we could talk about what we really want in terms of career – just a long topic to discuss and yeah a lot of discussions.

I usually walk going to the office except when I am running late. I enjoy walking while listening to music. Tonight, however, I was enjoying the walk without music – I left my earphones at Epay’s. I dropped by Starbucks to get my very tall extra hot caramel macchiato. I realized I haven’t eaten anything since my McDo meal the night before so I decided to grab some Thai food along the way - take-out of course. Spicy Thai food plus hot coffee don’t sound good together but what the hell. While waiting for my food, I thought – I want to stop taking out food and hurrying to go to office. I want to come back to having more dinner out with friends – with real people and not spend dinner with my computer. Actually it’s not the dinner itself but the conversations, laughter that come with eating with somebody (or a group of people). I promise to do that this week even if I am on night shift. With who? Now that’s another question haha.

With that, I will end with lines from that song –

I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun

2 cups of coffee after...

I think I am gonna change that description of mine by striking out SOON TO BE from soon-to-be insomniac. Since Friday, I have had 7 hours of sleep only. And I am not sleepy now. Tragic...

I read from somewhere -

He who has achieved success has worked well, laughed often and loved much.

For me, one of those is enough. One of those will bring me to the other two (not that I don't laugh OFTEN enough! haha).

I can't wait to love that much.

Of B-A-N-A-N-A-S and Spray Paints

I went to Ice's party last Saturday night after watching The Longest Yard with the Abnoys. Great movie, by the way. Needless to say, I missed partying, drinking, and hanging out with my friends. I realized how much I have missed the abnoys! And the wacky parties we always have. : ) I have cut down partying because of work. Night shift, long hours, overtime..the works.

Anyhoo, I have a very vague memory of what happened during the party. Haha. Well, now that I remember, it's not too vague after all. I won't go into details of course - but there was a lot of drinking, yosi-ing, horsing around! : ) Song of the night was Gwen Stefani's Hollaback girl - B-A-N-A-N-A-S. I couldn't get it right at first - I think I was spelling BANANANAS or something. It was fun...good beer, good music and even better company. What more can a workaholic-who-has-missed-most-of-the-late-night-barkada-gimmicks-the-past-months ask for!? I missed going home when the sun is up already. I got home at 730AM after breakfast - Teng was already preparing to leave for work (on a Sunday!). I didn't have to tell her I was drunk because I guess I looked it!

I woke up at 1PM - totally hung over. I am not usually the type who'd have a bad hang over - especially when drinking mostly beer. So I just waited for it to die in like 30 minutes. And it did! I was up and about at 2PM. I met up with Beege whom I was accompanying - to buy stuff for her new condo unit. She said I could spray paint her window so I was excited! She hesitated when she saw me excited (I can paint you know...how hard can it be?!). Because we haven't eaten (and I was coming from a hangover), we were starving so we ate. Jap food is always comfort food - not that we need comforting hehe. At 430pm we were on our way to her "crib" - where no shoes are allowed past the 3rd row of tiles. 5 hours, 1 spray paint can, 1 bottle of thinner, 1 unused can of paint, 2 double locks, 30 minutes nap time LATER, we were done! 'Course we didn't make it to mass. Bad. Tsk tsk.

And now (3AM Monday) I am at work...not working. Haha.

So there goes my signal - back to, ahem, fun.

All Time 5's

I just rewatched High Fidelity and for those who have seen it (and I highly encourage you to watch it), you know there are a lot of 'top 5 things' stuff there. So here's some of my lists of 5's - in order, of course!

Top 5 songs in my playlist (now playing) - tough one.

Ever After - Bonnie Bailey (from Hed Kendi Beach House 04.04..there ain't no current in this river we can't ride)
Brighter than Sunshine - Aqualung (Ten just gave this to me - sweet song. I didn't like it right away but it is now growing on me.) Very nice song. : )
You and Me - Lifehouse (from their new album. I love this band and their songs - spiritual. I love No Name Face album)
Shh - Frou Frou (the reason I like Electronica)
Take Me Out of The Dark - Gary V. No kidding. Always playing when I am at work.

Top 5 TV shows ever

Six Feet Under
Friends
CSI
Will & Grace
The Practice

Top 5 movies ever - tough too.

Memento
The Sixth Sense
Two Weeks Notice
The Breakfast Club
Love Actually

Top 5 Music Artists

Sarah McLachlan
Dave Matthews Band
Frou Frou
Lifehouse
Vertical Horizon

Prologue

I have been planning to create a blog for as long as I can remember! However 2 things prevented me. One - work. 'Nuff said! : ) Two - somehow related to work.. I was afraid I'd get addicted to blogging and, therefore, won't be able to concentrate on One. How geeky? I know!

I created my blog last Friday - August 26. I spent some time thinking of a blog title, etc. I could not think of any so I just tried drawing inspiration from the songs I was listening to then. The choices were from two of my fave artists: Dave Matthews and Sarah McLachlan.

From Dave Matthews: Under the Table and Dreaming?(an album title actually. and a line from Ants Marching), I wanted to stay, I wanted to play, I wanted to love you? (from #41. but it's just too long and besides, I am using it in my buddy icon)..certainly not from Lover Lay Down.

From Sarah McLachlan: I love this artist - really amazing.. her songs..lyrics.. and her voice. WOW. Anyhoo, I was listening to Vox..nah. and then Fear..nah. and then Path of Thorns - Terms of Endearment..didn't quite get me at that time. And then I listened to Elsewhere. I love this song (among a thousand others from her). I don't know why I chose it but I just felt it I guess. I love the lyrics, the melody, and how intense SM is singing it, as always. So hence, the birth of a blog title.

Now the blog site itself - mymirrorball - is just an allusion to one of my fave SM albums - Mirrorball - which is a live recording of past albums - Fumbling Towards Ecstasy (couldve been my title!..one of her best ever. probably the best), Solace.

So here it is. Let this begin.

[from elsewhere]

I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I’ll defend it long as
I can be left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand it

I would like to linger here in silence
If I choose to
Would you understand it
Would you try to understand...